Have you ever felt really stupid??
Because thats how I have been feeling lately… and I owe some people an apology.
The last few days I have been trying to organise my Free 5 Day Workshop on ‘Connecting to my Camino Self’ and I have been… lets say… ‘challenged by technology.’
For example- I got the registration links WRONG in my first email (so then I had to resend my email out AGAIN with an apology and the correct links)
This was frustrating because people had registered for the Workshop and I have no idea who they are…. So thats frustrating for everyone (especially those who originally registered)
Then I sent out a confirmation email that congratulated EVERYONE on my mailing list on SUCCESSFULLY registering for my Workshop… so there are lots of folk out there who think they will be attending my Workshop but they are not actually registered…. ANOTHER MAJOR FRUSTRATION!!
I managed to fix this and get the correct links out to people but I can understand how frustrating this must have been for you all.
And even now the Thank You page doesn’t appear and instead you are sent to my Youtube video…. but I am over trying to fix it and I go back to my new mantra ‘Done is better than perfect.’
So for all those muck ups, I apologise.
What I won’t apologise for though is being and feeling like a ‘human.’ A flawed, imperfect, messed up, beautiful, frustrated (and frustrating) loveable, annoying, and at times ‘pain in the arse’ human.
Because I am all of those things and much, much more.
I try things out, I challenge myself, I get stuff wrong, sometimes simple stuff that at 45 years of age one might expect to get right.
I make mistakes and I mess up. All the time. Just ask my very patient wife.
But you know what? That’s OK, because I am OK with who I am.
For many years I thought I didn’t make any mistakes because I spent so much of my time hiding and playing a small game. I thought I was keeping myself safe when in fact all I was doing was killing my dreams day by day, week by week, year by year.
And the more I refused to take any action, the more I came to dislike myself… the more I disliked myself the less inclined I was to take action.. till all I had was a bitter feeling of resentment, self loathing and disappointment in myself.
There is nothing as sad as a life wasted. Actually, there is something sadder than that- a life wasted by our own hand and thoughts…. and lack of actions.
Throughout this process of dealing with technology I have felt very overwhelmed, out of my depth, frustrated and at times very angry at myself.
Not because I have gotten it ‘wrong’ but because it has taken up so much of my time in doing this stuff and yet it didn’t do what I wanted it to.
Because these days as a husband, father to two boys under the age of four and Coach, time is the one thing I value MORE than anything else.
I can always make more money, I can always re-write emails, do more videos and create more workshops for my fellow Pilgrims but the one thing I (nor anyone else) can create more of is time.
And thats what I hate more than anything these days… wasting time.
I used to be the Michael Phelps of time wasting and procrastinating.
There was NO ONE on the face of the planet that could come up with better, more believable excuses as to why I could follow through (I even convinced myself of these sometimes)
But now it is the one thing I dislike the most about my personality. (But I am OK with it. I used to HATE it but I have grown to accept it and learnt to ‘love’ it which is something I will cover in my workshop)
I am even working on learning to ‘love’ my frustrating habits and I have started to do this because I recently acquired a Coach to help me navigate through my own ‘stuff’ that has been building up for the last 40 odd years.
He has a great saying ‘There is nothing to work on, there is just shit to let go of’ and I agree 100%.
I have started to analyse exactly what ‘shit’ I am holding onto (like unnecessary belongings in our back-pack) and I am taking steps to let it go. (I will also be covering this and much more in my Free Workshop.)
My Coach hasn’t changed my life, but the guidance he has given me has enabled me to take the steps to change my own life.
And that my friends is way more powerful than just issuing instructions on how to ‘make change.’
So if any of this has struck a chord and you would like ton know more about what I do and how I help Pilgrims affect real change in THEIR lives via THEIR actions then a great place to start would be registering for my Free 5 Day Online Workshop on ‘Connecting with your Camino Self.’
The only thing it will ‘cost’ you is time and you will get to be in a safe, energising space with other Pilgrims who are taking action in making the changes they want in their life.
And that is time well spent.
Use your time wisely Pilgrims, its the most precious thing any of us have.